you know, today is really what a day in the history of my life. my life has never been this dramatic before(though that doesnt mean this is all fake and i dont like it)(its just a bit kua zhang ba). we being the dominating ones have went out of our ways to make what we think we want to work. yet we are still unhappy.

seeing you like this, it made me happy and sad.. sad because i thought you are suppose to be more comfortable, happy because when we broke up, i wished that you will lead a life you want to. which you did...

im glad that we cleared things up.. :') yes the cry baby me still cried alot.. but to be able to cry so much after such a long time of not crying... its a hell better! =D

the thing i said i'll let you know when you reach home? the thing that made me cant sit cant lie down and cant look you in the eyes for a long time? because every inch of me is asking me to hug and kiss you. but no matter how much you mean to me, i should not force myself upon you, even if you are a willing party, i cant afford to upset your him this way too, you will have guilt.

but i surely did miss you alot... alot...