as time goes by, things change, almost everything changes, even behaviour. What should we do? progress, stagnate, re-track? I'm someone who finds it hard to adapt to change, however, in order to move on, progress is required. Should I progress to live? Doing things you don't like to do is hard. but what makes you grows is to do the things you don't really like yet do them well.
back to life....
i just completed field camp(FC) and sitest, so so mentally and physically taxing... grrr... almost fell out too.. so disappointing. however i still completed it. Many people told me that once you completed both, you'll feel some sense of satisfaction, surprisingly, i didn't. Probably it's because i went through it with many helping hands of friends.
Many thanks to Fazil the
GANGSTER/HANDSOME, Weng Kin, one of the
legendary 6 in FC, Samauel the
whatsoever, Tommy the
Green power ranger, De Kai the
friendly BO CHUP.
From now till passing out day, it'll be more of the routine things. I'll be taking things slow and steady to think of what will be ahead for me. Make the right decisions, keep on track.
I'll be watching
today, the title gives me the impression that it'll be a nice show. shall see what's in the apple...
sorry about the 'no pictures' entries. however, since entering, i kinda lost my sense of photography, need to get the senses back first. next entry will be on my fish tanks.. ^^
things i'll be doing.. the upcoming next..
Driving license
mum's catalouge
badminton training
♥ {8:57 PM}
I'm quite lost as time passes by. Looking up into the sky, "wide, blue, limitless, infinity, brain, grey, black, unconscious, blank, end."
♥ {1:03 AM}
oh man.. it has been like 2 months plus since i last blogged! haha sorry... i've entered ns.. hmmm... lets see...
things initially didn't go the way they should initially... 6 months back i said i'll chiong ah! and 6 months later i sat in bunk crying... lol! it makes a big difference when your parents do see you there or not ok! its like they made this announcement in the cookhouse after lunch.. "parents, please bid your sons goodbye." then i realise i didn't have anyone to say anything to... the whole day of jan 6 was traumatising for me... however, i managed to start talking to some people beside me, ending up becoming my bunk mates lo! haha!
hmmm... confinement period was a time that really builds the inner self you need. it made me know that i cant rely much on anyone anymore... i felt better when i realise that everyone was on the same boat as me... even though i clicked well with my new friends at bmt, i soon got out of course due to medical conditions... sigh, just when things warm up eh.
new posting arrived; storeman. people there are great to me, probably except 1 that's really boastful about himself, but when the time comes, he still does his work... that's still good. its a very different environment in the new place as i meet very different people compared to bmt... perhaps because during bmt we go through more tough times together.. nevertheless, there's still things i can learn here and i'm still learning. apparently my IC is super busy, i can only help him when he thinks he can pass the job to me, otherwise, he's on his own...
many think that ns is a waste of time, however many told me to try to make full use of this time to learn something. learn something throughout the 2 years so being controlled.
i'm learning, even though i'm not able to show it properly yet, i'm still learning...
after just typing the above sentence, i just had a de javu haha... and i feel like writing this down now...
please give me more time. i know i've made you upset and disappointed in me. i know that you're unhappy about things of me. i just hope you would give me the time i need to show you i'm real, not someone who wears a mask for occasions.
countless times i was asked to stop with the dish plates, i didn't know that was just courtesy, if i did i would continue, i just want to show i care, i love..
i'm sorry.
♥ {11:28 AM}
sorry for being so so late!! haha anyway i went on cruise! haha on super star virgo! extremely big! 12 stories... blah blah blah!
the sign that we always see but dono the size.
seen this in titanic right?! haha something like a communication device.
anyway, this! is my girlfriend. Gene.
as you can see from this photo... you can really see how i fell into her trap!
and how she fell into mine! haha~
in a pub in the morning looking at the scenery! not bad..
the stairs.. i feel like i'm in titanic lol!
on the top deck, just that its extremely windy! she always needs to fight with her hair... haha
the sunrise, best photo i've taken for now.. quite pathetic eh...
in the lift... she's like an addict... for photo taking!
squinting in the sun don't make you look nice... remember that!
1 of the mascot on cruise... very very adorable~!
took this by ourselves! believe ma?! haha first night..
for everything that has a beginning has an end... ours end like this.. =]]
lastly... this kick starts our story!
looking into her eyes, i see someone different, someone delicate, someone who needs protection...
someone, who simply needs me..
we saw sunrise, sunset, and we even saw a shooting star.
our wishes even though kept to ourselves, didn't seem like a secret at all..
it was just..... simple, plain, obvious.
♥ {9:22 AM}
hello!!! i'm back a while... =]] bet all of ya miss this idiot right? wahaha!!!
graduation's really great. ! i really miss it.. but its better only to have it once ;]
edgar, james, david(geog teacher), dickson
these 2 were in the same class as me for 7 years!! always here... and there actually... haha
let's re-introduce!
what we look like!
i still look like me of course! wahaha!
next to me is an 80s pilot
and next to him probably is a new age pilot!
my class! anyone who sees their soul mate inside may contact me at 9228 0188,
match making charges apply ;)
oh! fyi! she's not on the list!! haha
heyya pretty! free to date?
and just one bring home message..
what made us is what brought us here..
i'll miss u guys once we part..
we part......... but we'll meet again!
many loves to 06S4
♥ {7:13 AM}
an E down... sweet dreams to me for tonight.
no regrets no fear no anything
just my clear mind and facts
like later in the day i'm having grad night.
15-16 oct 2008
no promises by shayne ward
♥ {9:08 AM}
Got to study for exams
see you when November ends
♥ {9:46 AM}
the sunrise, best photo i've taken for now.. quite pathetic eh...
these 2 were in the same class as me for 7 years!! always here... and there actually... haha
my class! anyone who sees their soul mate inside may contact me at 9228 0188,
oh! fyi! she's not on the list!! haha
and just one bring home message..
many loves to 06S4